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well the chavs get what ever they want, and no one stands up to them so I though I should for some one and b (chav) was, early in the morning making crow noises to annoy every one, and I said to her, “well done, not only do you sound like a bird but you look like one” and I walked off to my room then at lunch time she and Katie (chav) started having a go at me, saying “what did you say to b??” and I said “don’t worry”, and then Katie said “don’t be so ignorant, answer b” and I said “whoa ignorant, a big word for you” and then I walked off, the next night I was packing to leave and my friend Alexi was there too and they (b and Katie) came, the door was open and the started having a go at me, taking the Mickey out of me, they asked what I said to Katie and I said oh sorry if cant rember she said maybe you'll rember if I stick my fist in your face and I said may be then she said what if I stuck my foot in your face and I said maybe then she started saying about my pomes saying they were crap and stuff, then she walked off, shouting, what ever mush and I called the same back mimicking her and she came back, by this time there were a tone of chavs there, laughing and shouting at me, banging on the windows, then she made a comment and I flipped, I slammed the door trapping her and the chavs in the door, they were trying to come in, by now VVVVVV angry I loosened the door to get them out, then I locked it and the windows, they were banging on the door and windows trying to get in, the door was like nearly off its hinges Shrin,(nice person) came and tried to clear the area and get me out, but I was so scared, I let Alexi out and pulled the curtains, there was one window that wouldn’t shut properly and they were throwing stones through it and then I mouthed to my friend through the window, get help. I pulled the curtains and hid in the loo, I was sooo sooo sooo scared, I was bagging my head against the walls and chicken scratching my arm

I’m amy and I get classed as a goth or grundger, because I wear black and eye liner a lot. I listen to rock music, I love it, and other types of music, a large variety. I have some amazing friends I love them to pieces and would do anything for them, I love you, all of you so much, I cant write you all down because I don’t wanna miss any one out or add some who is like 'what the fuck?' And you guys have helped me through soo much, when I’m a depressive moody cow when im an annoying hyper five year old and when im off the handles with want for power. I write songs, poems, and im working on a story. People say I’m talented but I don’t know. I self harm and I drink my own blood, yes I am crazy, and probably mentally unstable too. I love vampire things like books, dresses, people, and films anything and every thing, I have a sight obsession, at the moment I write lyrics for a band, hallowed smile; all my band mates are fab mates. We have done one of our own songs and have been offered a gig but we refused, we don’t think we are ready. Some times I’m very happy and hyper other times I’m really depressive I can’t cry a lot its really hard and it just won’t come out. Some times I cut and others I chicken scratch, one I had a thing of running my arm under boiling water it was sooo comforting. It like tested myself on how much I could handle I would come out of the shower soo proud of myself. I’m a Wiccan and I have a beautiful shrine in my room I light a candle on it most of the time. I feel a great connection between nature and me. I get the piss taken out of me a lot at school and it makes me very low. And I hate myself for letting it happen, some times I fantasise about killing them or me. Some times I feel trapped against a brick wall in an alley and death is the only way out. I love the sight of blood and taste. I guess I am sick but oh well get over it.

I have such great mates and I love them so much, if I ever died I hope they know that.

I myself don’t understand when people are scared of death because it is inevitable.